Peek at Jack

Just a little peek at Jack this morning!

His tongue makes us laugh every day. It's always sticking out.

DH and I went to Carrabas last night. We had good intentions of enjoying healthy salads. The chef tempted us with a Chicken Marsala appetizer. OMG! It was wonderful. It had the best flavor. We had to change our orders.

Hallelujah! I made it to the gym this afternoon. Unfortunately my nano died as soon as I got started. I persevered without my favorite "working out" play list. I am so proud of myself. I feel so much better. I'm going to start going again. Hopefully a daily basis.

I saw the cutest pregnant belly while grocery shopping today. She was glowing. Why can't I have that?

In baby making news, I'm on CD...ummm, let me see...20! We had fun trying before and after my smiley face. We did all that we could. Now it's in His hands. I hope the next 12 - 14 days go by quickly. I'm ready to find out if a miracle is growing inside of me.

Is it really March? Bathing suit season is coming up. That bothers me.

Okay, enough of my randomness.

I hope you have a wonderful week.

Spring Cleaning

I've done a little spring cleaning with my blog. I wanted something new and fresh. I used www.scrapblog.com to create my layout. I was impressed with their free services. I changed my blog title to Where's Baby? I wanted a title that reflected the content of my blog. I'm still living my happily ever after. I'm just wondering: where's baby?

Let me know if it's hard to read. I'm open to changing it for my readers.

Pre Conceive Plus

Cheers to my OPK being accurate! I've had some serious EWCM today.

It's wild what that smiley face did for me this morning. I've had the best day. DH and I planned a "meet me in bed at 4 PM" date. It was the first available time we could hop in the sack. Oh, and we tried Pre Conceive Plus. I picked it up at CVS this afternoon. Who knows if it really works but I thought, why not give it a try?

I didn't make it to the gym today. We ate dinner at Outback. WTF?

OPK = BFP

Finally! A BFP on my OPK! It made my day. I'm hopeful again.

I didn't make it to the gym this morning. But I did start my morning off with a Slim Fast shake. The Cappuccino Delight flavor is actually tasty! If you haven't tried it, you should. I'm having a Slim Fast bar for lunch. Hopefully I can manage a healthy dinner!

Love-Hate Relationship

I'm having a love-hate relationship with this break cycle. I love the relaxation: no meds, no appointments, etc. I hate the wait and knowing our plan of starting a family is on hold.

So!

I think I'm loving the break more than I'm hating it. The last few days I've been asking myself: should I take a longer break? I want to focus on being happy and getting in shape. I feel like the last two IUIs really brought me down. They were stressful and unsuccessful. I gained weight during those cycles. I've got fat in places I've never seen it before and I'm not even pregnant! I want to lose it. I want to start working out again. I've always said I wanted to be my skinniest before getting pregnant. Not the opposite, which is what I am right now.

Realistically I know that I can't put our plan of starting a family on hold for too long. I want to be a Mommy! But I think I can postpone our 3rd IUI until the month of my 25th birthday: June.

We'll see. I'll keep you updated. Things might change but for now, I've got plans to hit the gym before work tomorrow morning.

CD 16

I'm on CD 16. I've been using the Clearblue Easy Digital Ovulation Tests. So far I haven't seen a smiley face. I wonder if I will even ovulate this month. Break cycles suck.

blabla Dolls

So we're back to finding the perfect church again. We visited a baptist church in downtown Savannah this morning. We weren't impressed. After church we had lunch on River Street with Q and her DH. We stopped by the market to find these PRECIOUS dolls by blabla. I walked away without one. I'm not sure how I resisted. I will give in when our baby is in the making. Until then they would be a sweet shower gift, right?

www.blablakids.com

One of Those Days

It's one of those days. You know, when your heart just hurts all day? You do lots of wondering: why us? I know in my heart that He has a greater plan. I just need to keep trusting Him and be patient. It's just hard sometimes and so frustrating!

I've been okay with this break. Why am I surprised I'm not okay with it now? IF is nothing but a roller coaster of emotions. I was talking with a friend from college yesterday. She graduated with a degree in education too. She couldn't stop naming all of the girls from our class that had a newborn or were expecting. I wasn't shocked. They're just like DH and me: married and ready for a family. But then again I was shocked that we still aren't pregnant. Again, why us? This morning I ran into a friend that got married and started teaching the same summer I did. Someone commented about her cute little belly. Oh, right away I felt two emotions: pure happiness (for her) and pure sadness (for me).

I know you understand. Either you're in my shoes or you've been in my shoes. I'm just thankful for your stories. They help me get through days like today.

Happy Valentine's Day

Dinner for Two

DH and I enjoyed our day together. We slept in and relaxed all day. We haven't done that in forever so it was nice. We usually go out to dinner on Valentine's but not this year. DH decided to make dinner. We had lasagna. It was wonderful. He's so much better in the kitchen than me. I kiss better than I cook! Afterwards we talked about how many years we've been together. We can't believe it but we've been together since 2001. Isn't that crazy? We've practically grown up together. We wouldn't trade it for the world. We can't imagine living our lives without each other.

OMG! A CYST?

Q and I drove to Savannah for my u/s appointment this morning. Q's my friend struggling with IF. She seeing my RE in Charleston too. We laughed while walking in. We just knew we looked like the typical lesbian couple you'd see in a fertility clinic. I was the woman of the relationship: dressed all nice and girly (for work) and Q was the man of the relationship: dressed in jeans and sweat shirt (for relaxing because she didn't have to work).

So anyway, off to a room we go, giggling away! While Q's sitting right by my side all seems fine with the u/s UNTIL the probe goes over to my left ovary. And OMG! There was ginormous cyst. It looked like the size of my left ovary! My heart dropped. The RE said, "Have you noticed anything different about this period or anything?" I said, "No, not that I know of." She said, "Well this a very large cyst (3 cm). It is filled with fluid and see that small spot (can't remember what she called it). That's usually there around ovulation, not now." She called my RE in Charleston. Before she came back I knew what she was going to say: we had to take a break this month. Thank goodness Q was with me. I wasn't devastated but it was nice to share the shock with a friend that understands the ups and downs of IF.

We canceled my u/s appointment for Tuesday and left for brunch in downtown Savannah. My nurse in Charleston called me to say it isn't uncommon to have cysts after medicated cycles. She said not to worry about taking a break because it will be good my mind and body. She said we could try naturally with OPKs. I agreed with her. In a way I felt relieved. I thought, NO meds or appointments for a whole month. I bet that will be nice! She reminded me that patients have conceived during break cycles. I believe her but I'm not convinced it will happen to us.

Has this happened to anyone else? Is my cyst (3 cm) extremely large? Will it take more than one month to go away? My nurse said if it hasn't disappeared by next month they could aspirate it. Any other advice related to my concerns?

Thanks a million!