TWINS!!!

I was sooo nervous on our way to Charleston this morning.  Josh kept saying "Calm down!  It's going to be okay."

It was okay when we saw TWO little hearts beating this morning!  It was amazing to see those two little miracles.  We are very excited and thankful.  We are happy that Stella was there to share that special moment with us.  Our family feels complete!  One baby measured 6 weeks.  One baby measured 6 weeks and 1 day.  Both seem to be doing very well right now.

When we first looked at the screen, I thought I saw three sacs BUT our RE explained that the third sac was a subchorionic hematoma.  He said it was the cause of my bleeding and he said that he wouldn't be surprised if I had more bleeding over the next two weeks.  He said eventually the subchorionic hematoma will be absorbed into my body.  I can't remember the explanation he gave me for why it occurred but it seemed like something normal. 

We were given a 5% chance of miscarriage and a 10% chance of a vanishing twin. 

I'll post ultrasound pictures soon.  My next ultrasound is Friday, August 5th!

Power of Prayer

I just wanted to say THANK YOU for all of your thoughts and prayers.  It really means a lot to us and we are very thankful.  Your kind words make me smile and I really appreciate them.  So thank you again for all of your comments.  I read each one and smile.

The power of prayer is amazing!  I haven't had any spotting since Sunday.  That's pretty amazing!  I really thought that last weekend's spotting was the beginning of the end.  I hate be so negative but after all that we've been through it's just hard to be hopeful at times.  You never know that to expect with infertility.  It's like a roller coaster of highs and lows.  It just sucks.  I hate it for me and for anyone else that has to go through it.

I feel like my life usually flies but not recently because we've had a lot of waiting and hoping to do.  I feel like Friday is never going to get here.  We are less than 48 hours away from our first ultrasound.

Stopped Again!

So it stopped again.  I haven't had any problems since Sunday.  Let's pray it stays away!  I'm beyond ready for Friday's ultrasound.  Stay tuned!

It's back...

...as of noon today.  I just can't get excited any more because what if it's the worse case scenario: an unhealthy pregnancy and/or beginning of a miscarriage.  If it's going to be over, I want to know so I can move on.  I don't want to wait all week to find out.

"Wishing I was knee deep in the water somewhere
Got the blue sky breeze blowing wind through my hair
Only worry in the world is the tide gonna reach my chair
Sunrise there's a fire in the sky
Never been so happy
Never felt so high
And I think I might have found me my own kind of paradise"

Knee Deep by Zac Brown and Jimmy

It's gone, for now!

If I was going to miscarry, I think things would get worse not better.  So far things are better.  I haven't had any spotting today.  I'm so thankful.  I feel like maybe my nurse was right.

Spotting at 5W2D

The spotting stopped but then started again this evening.  I have to admit that it is not really a lot.  But still, it's there.  I just hate it.  I keep thinking about all we have been through.  We started this process in early May.  It's been part of our daily lives for two months: anxiety, tests, doctor's appointments, shots, etc.  How could this happen?  I just want it to be a perfect pregnancy.  After all we've been through, can things just be OKAY?  I'm trying to have faith in His plan.

babymed.com

A normal hCG rise over several days prior to 6 weeks of the pregnancy usually indicates a viable pregnancy. In general, the best indication of a healthy pregnancy other than a normal rise of hCG is a good fetal heartbeat after 6-7 weeks.  -babymed.com

Prayers Please

My third beta at 18dp5dt is 9,121.  Yay!  But maybe not?

I usually hear from my nurse around 9 AM with my results.  I had not heard from her at 10 AM this morning so I called.  I had a feeling something was wrong.  I left a message and then went to the bathroom.  I was bleeding.  Yep!  Can you believe it?  The first thing I thought of was: Wow! This is an early miscarriage.  I thought this because this is how my last early miscarriage started.  It's light but it's pink and red.  So it's scary and now I'm really emotional and of course worried.

I called my nurse back again when I saw the blood.  The receptionist let me talk to her.  She said it's normal with a twin pregnancy and that it happens all the time.  She said to take it easy and not worry.  What?  Are you kidding me?  How do I bleed and not worry?  She talked to my RE and he said to go ahead and schedule my ultrasound at 5.5 weeks which will be next Friday.  So it's on Friday at 8:30 AM.  That's a long time from now. 

At least I have a high beta!  That's good news.  Let's just hope this bleeding stops.

Beta in AM

My third beta is tomorrow morning.  I'm ready to know that all is well.  I'm feeling great!  I feel pregnant and I love it.  I haven't had any morning sickness but I didn't have any with Stella.  I am a little more tired than usual.  When I'm standing I can feel a really hard area.  It's exciting to know that's the baby or babies, well actually, it's my uterus growing but the baby or babies are in there. I didn't feel it this early with Stella but that was also my first pregnancy.

I'm going to be scheduling my first ultrasound tomorrow.  Last time I scheduled it as early as possible because I just wanted to see my baby!  I think I actually scheduled it a couple days earlier than they recommended.  This time I feel the same way but I'm hesitate to schedule it as early as possible.  I'm thinking I'll do as late as possible, probably next Friday.  Last time they told us it was twins but that one of the babies heart beats had not started.  They said that was common because it was too early to see it.  They gave us a 90% chance of bringing home twins and a 99% chance of bringing home one baby.  We definitely thought it was twins with a 90% chance.  We had to wait TWO weeks to find out if that baby's heart started.  Two weeks later we found out that it did and it stopped growing, or it never started.  We will never know.  But I don't want to have to go through all those emotions again.

babymed.com

Thanks to babymed.com, I can share my beta results on a chart: